cough

nov 23, 2009, 12:21 pm – icy cold!

nov 23, 2009, 12:22 pm – yeah i know, i think the worlds gone wrong

nov 23, 2009, 12:23 pm – It’s just sick i think

nov 23, 2009, 12:26 pm – Yeah.

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“this reminds me of you sometimes”

And don’t feel sorry for loverboy
You know he wants the world to love him, then he goes and spoils it all
Don’t feel sorry for loverboy
He wants the world to love him, then he goes and spoils it all for love

 Oh for love, little girl

Oh for love, little girl

 

(For love)
 

appropriately

.2009

not over

when a task it over, everything makes more sense, if only for a moment.

or does it?

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Night

Being asleep.

It’s important to get a good nights sleep. Eight hours is the minimum for a grown adult.

Often I don’t go to bed till well past bed time. I don’t get anything done, time just passes and i get sleepy. The next day is tiring.

I like sleeping, but I also think it is a little like being dead. It’s the closest I’ve been to actually being dead. When I was younger I thought about being dead much more than I do now, and it was always just as I fell to sleep.

I want to be awake in the world

the most unattractive emotion

I feel it sometimes. So does my friend.

Talking without words.

I remembered how to communicate with my body. I don’t need to say anything to anyone with words, so I didn’t. My body was very vocal, loud and beautiful and furious. It was a lot of fun.

OUTBOX

This evening i wrote a text to someone but didn’t send it. I like the benefits and freedom of unsent letters.

Letters allow for honesty, I like to think of it as non-confrontational honesty. Or rather, delayed-confrontational honesty. I think they can be a great medium to expose your thoughts to whomever the letter is for. That’s good for me because conversations can be hard. Also they are a good way to see your own emotions in print. They look ugly and nice.

This evening I feel almost as good as if I had sent it.

Because of the personal benefits that come from letter writing, sending them isn’t necessary.

It is also a chance to practice melodramatic rhythms.

“I miss you.” was the best part of tonight’s unsent message. Not because of its creativity but because it’s written with the strongest of my feelings behind it.

♥

I wish loving someone didn’t make me so mad at them. These days when I love someone I hate them too.

Someone told me that hate and love are very close. I find it hard to distinguish the two now.

TWO